It’s really crazy to think that this week would be our mid-term. If life was continuing like normal, we would be at a conference in Spain for our mission agency right now – hanging out on the beach and catching up on a week of schoolwork. Due to COVID-19 though, we are both back in North America and, like many other schools, are doing all schooling remotely. I personally do not like online school. I think that it takes out all of the fun in school. I miss my friends that are thousands of miles and lots of time zones away. I miss my dorm family and the community at RVA. But, there are some perks to online school too; like we get to see our family every day, not just every three months, we get to sleep in and eat good food.
But Recently things in my life have seemed all twisted or foggy. For example, I don’t know whether I will be able to go back to school in a few months, I don’t know where I will be in or living the next few months, I don’t even know where my family will be living in the upcoming months. There are so many unknowns right now, sometimes I wish that I could just see some of the future, know some things, have cont rol of something. Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” ahhhh straight paths, I wish I could see those, but as the first part says to “trust and not to lean on your own understanding.” dang, that’s hard, but it’s just one of those really hard things that we have to get used to, and to lean on him through the mist of it all. I have to constantly remind myself that God knows the future, my best future, he sees every single day of my future, he sees the straight path, and I won’t ever be able to see. And that even in the hardest times where I can’t see the path, all I can do is lean on him because he knows what’s best.